It all really started this morning wen i woke up very tired... Ive been trying 2 wake up at 6am every morning and my body woke me up at 5:30!!!! wiaow :3 so it was already not amazing cus of how much of a sleepy sleepster i was LOL. But then very wierdly i had this feeling where my legs just gave out?? i almost fell over! it wuz very odd... after that point ive felt all down, like an evil dark rain cloud has been following me :( Ive struggled with sum pretty evil rainclouds in the past but i never really managed to help myself with them. But.... I had a realisation recently :D so, i like being creative; i make music sumtimes and i write and of course, this website (even though its very new). and i guess i had never really made the connection between me not being creative leading to me being unhappy, but like obvs! o(≧口≦)o I wuz so silly to not have made this connection in all the years i've been alive... well, now i know! its honestly been surprising me this evening just how much being creative has made me feel better; theres sumthing about the process of freeing ur mind up for a while that really helps me get out of a rut of sadness, even if just for a bit. So i guess my advice from this is that, if ur feeling sad, you should do something creative, soemthing that you've done before and you know you luv
(^・ω・^ ) It helps so much! it seems strange to me now that i'd never really come to this conclusion before cuz i do think a lot about how i feel, maybe i never thought about it cuz i saw being creative as sumthin that can be demotivating. If i make a piece of music and it sounds really bad then that can make me sad but i realised recently (thanks in large part to a youtuber called shitty_kickflips, you should defo check them out! :3 ) that i wuz lookin at art all wrong! I had 2 convince my silly inner self :P that art is not about making a gud end product but instead the therapeautic process of expressing yourself in the truest form imaginable. I think I might still be convincing myself of that... i think its pretty good advice xP sorryyy guys 4 a little more serious blog post but i wanted 2 get it off my chest and if my experience can help any1 else then that wud be amazing! luv u all xxxx (✿◠‿◠)
P.S i might start uploading my music on2 here if i like it enough soooo perhaps stay tuned 4 dat :3
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